Today, I Am not Okay

Yesterday, I was not okay.

As far back as I can remember, I have never been okay.

I have been many things.

What are Gaslighters?

Gaslighting is a term to describe people who try to manipulate others by psychological methods. Essentially they use this to make the other person question their own reality, their own sanity and their own way of looking at things, especially themselves.

What does C-PTSD and PTSD healing really mean?

One year ago I reached a point where I could not handle my life anymore. My depression was so strong, for me, and I was falling apart. I would be wracked with emotional flashbacks. I would be hit at any moment without warning with pain, grief and loss. I would start to feel the rage that had plagued me when I was a child. There would be times when I would put up the emotional bubble, the shield that protected me from feeling when I was a kid.

C-PTSD Triggers Can Pop Out of Anywhere

Some of you have been following the Facebook page and the blog for a while. Hell, it has only been up for a few months. I am amazed at the response. Aside from a few unhinged people, we have had some great people here in the community and I am grateful for each of you. […]

Not Giving Up Yet

I want to feel the water fill my lungs,As I fight despite myself for survival.The fish and marine animals watch impassivelyI sink deeper and deeper into the darkness of the depths of the ocean.The salt water stinging my eyes.My lungs ready to burst, trying to pull in air where there is none. I watch as […]

The Morning My Mother Showed Me Magic Existed

[av_image src=’https://ptsdtraumasurvivors.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/09/ptsd-trauma-survivor-childhood-abuse.png’ attachment=’349′ attachment_size=’full’ align=’center’ styling=” hover=” link=” target=” caption=” font_size=” appearance=” overlay_opacity=’0.4′ overlay_color=’#000000′ overlay_text_color=’#ffffff’ animation=’no-animation’ admin_preview_bg=”][/av_image] [av_textblock size=” font_color=” color=” admin_preview_bg=”] A little Background I have written and talked a little about my biological mother. She was a very sick woman. Her illness, from what I understood started when she was pregnant with my […]

Nightmares – Night Terrors and PTSD/C-PTSD

Hi everyone, I have been posting and talking about my night terrors/nightmares recently and I have been asked about the difference between the two and what the relationship is between these and PTSD and C-PTSD. I was going to write a response on the Facebook page and I felt that it would be a better […]

Forgiveness is not necessary for trauma recovery

[av_image src=’https://ptsdtraumasurvivors.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/08/Forgiveness-is-not-necessary-main-image.png’ attachment=’311′ attachment_size=’full’ align=’center’ styling=” hover=” link=” target=” caption=” font_size=” appearance=” overlay_opacity=’0.4′ overlay_color=’#000000′ overlay_text_color=’#ffffff’ animation=’no-animation’ admin_preview_bg=”][/av_image] [av_textblock size=” font_color=” color=” admin_preview_bg=”] This post I think may ruffle a few feathers and if it does, that is okay, just get off my page. I have no use for you, nor do my fellow survivors. If […]

A C-PTSD Childhood Abuse Survivor’s Personal Message

[av_image src=’https://ptsdtraumasurvivors.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/08/cptsd-trauma-survivor-message.png’ attachment=’301′ attachment_size=’full’ align=’center’ styling=” hover=” link=” target=” caption=” font_size=” appearance=” overlay_opacity=’0.4′ overlay_color=’#000000′ overlay_text_color=’#ffffff’ animation=’no-animation’ admin_preview_bg=”][/av_image] [av_textblock size=” font_color=” color=” admin_preview_bg=”] This was written by a member of our community, Danielle Willette. If you want to send her a message, respond to the post below. I think she is so brave for sharing this and […]

The Night I Ruined New Years Eve

[av_image src=’https://ptsdtraumasurvivors.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/07/adult-survivor-childhood-trauama-ptsd-new-years-eve.png’ attachment=’279′ attachment_size=’full’ align=’center’ styling=” hover=” link=” target=” caption=” font_size=” appearance=” overlay_opacity=’0.4′ overlay_color=’#000000′ overlay_text_color=’#ffffff’ animation=’no-animation’ admin_preview_bg=”][/av_image] [av_heading tag=’h3′ padding=’10’ heading=’The Night I Ruined New Years Eve’ color=” style=” custom_font=” size=” subheading_active=” subheading_size=’15’ custom_class=” admin_preview_bg=”][/av_heading] [av_textblock size=” font_color=” color=” admin_preview_bg=”] “What were you thinking when designed it this way?” my boss asked me the other […]