Bleeding Out Through Writing…

This is going to just be like most of my Facebook live videos, a rambling post that I am just going to let flow. There is no purpose to this other than to express myself. It will be interesting to see how it turns out. Read, don’t read, I just need to write.

I feel like I shit. I wrote about that a while ago, I am not okay. And it is okay not to be okay but it feels like shit and as the chemicals in my brain change due to the medications I am taking to help me deal with the symptoms of the C-PTSD or Developmental Trauma Disorder, I am struggling.

What are Gaslighters?

Gaslighting is a term to describe people who try to manipulate others by psychological methods. Essentially they use this to make the other person question their own reality, their own sanity and their own way of looking at things, especially themselves.

What does C-PTSD and PTSD healing really mean?

One year ago I reached a point where I could not handle my life anymore. My depression was so strong, for me, and I was falling apart. I would be wracked with emotional flashbacks. I would be hit at any moment without warning with pain, grief and loss. I would start to feel the rage that had plagued me when I was a child. There would be times when I would put up the emotional bubble, the shield that protected me from feeling when I was a kid.

C-PTSD Triggers Can Pop Out of Anywhere

Some of you have been following the Facebook page and the blog for a while. Hell, it has only been up for a few months. I am amazed at the response. Aside from a few unhinged people, we have had some great people here in the community and I am grateful for each of you. […]

Not Giving Up Yet

I want to feel the water fill my lungs,As I fight despite myself for survival.The fish and marine animals watch impassivelyI sink deeper and deeper into the darkness of the depths of the ocean.The salt water stinging my eyes.My lungs ready to burst, trying to pull in air where there is none. I watch as […]

The Morning My Mother Showed Me Magic Existed

[av_image src=’https://ptsdtraumasurvivors.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/09/ptsd-trauma-survivor-childhood-abuse.png’ attachment=’349′ attachment_size=’full’ align=’center’ styling=” hover=” link=” target=” caption=” font_size=” appearance=” overlay_opacity=’0.4′ overlay_color=’#000000′ overlay_text_color=’#ffffff’ animation=’no-animation’ admin_preview_bg=”][/av_image] [av_textblock size=” font_color=” color=” admin_preview_bg=”] A little Background I have written and talked a little about my biological mother. She was a very sick woman. Her illness, from what I understood started when she was pregnant with my […]

Fuck the Gaslighters and Trolls

[av_image src=’https://ptsdtraumasurvivors.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/09/Copy-of-Copy-of-Copy-of-Be-Yourself.png’ attachment=’339′ attachment_size=’full’ align=’center’ styling=” hover=” link=” target=” caption=” font_size=” appearance=” overlay_opacity=’0.4′ overlay_color=’#000000′ overlay_text_color=’#ffffff’ animation=’no-animation’ admin_preview_bg=”][/av_image] [av_heading tag=’h3′ padding=’10’ heading=’Promise (not really) this is the last (seriously it won’t be) Post on Trolls and Ignorant People Who Post Shit That Is Designed To Cause Harm and Inflame or Cause Shame.’ color=” style=” custom_font=” size=” […]

Nightmares – Night Terrors and PTSD/C-PTSD

Hi everyone, I have been posting and talking about my night terrors/nightmares recently and I have been asked about the difference between the two and what the relationship is between these and PTSD and C-PTSD. I was going to write a response on the Facebook page and I felt that it would be a better […]

Forgiveness is not necessary for trauma recovery

[av_image src=’https://ptsdtraumasurvivors.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/08/Forgiveness-is-not-necessary-main-image.png’ attachment=’311′ attachment_size=’full’ align=’center’ styling=” hover=” link=” target=” caption=” font_size=” appearance=” overlay_opacity=’0.4′ overlay_color=’#000000′ overlay_text_color=’#ffffff’ animation=’no-animation’ admin_preview_bg=”][/av_image] [av_textblock size=” font_color=” color=” admin_preview_bg=”] This post I think may ruffle a few feathers and if it does, that is okay, just get off my page. I have no use for you, nor do my fellow survivors. If […]

Be Yourself, Your Strength Comes From Within

[av_image src=’https://ptsdtraumasurvivors.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/08/cptsd-survivors-fighting-mental-health-stygma.png’ attachment=’287′ attachment_size=’full’ align=’center’ styling=” hover=” link=” target=” caption=” font_size=” appearance=” overlay_opacity=’0.4′ overlay_color=’#000000′ overlay_text_color=’#ffffff’ animation=’no-animation’ admin_preview_bg=”][/av_image] [av_heading heading=’Another Rant About Another Bullshit Quote’ tag=’h3′ style=” size=” subheading_active=” subheading_size=’15’ padding=’10’ color=” custom_font=” admin_preview_bg=”][/av_heading] [av_hr class=’default’ height=’50’ shadow=’no-shadow’ position=’center’ custom_border=’av-border-thin’ custom_width=’50px’ custom_border_color=” custom_margin_top=’30px’ custom_margin_bottom=’30px’ icon_select=’yes’ custom_icon_color=” icon=’ue808′] [av_textblock size=” font_color=” color=” admin_preview_bg=”] Hi Guys, the following […]